Hines Family Joy: Sickly household :(

I'm sick. I feel crappy. And it's not fun! It started out a couple days ago with my left eye all red and blood shot. Usually when one of my eyes goes bloodshot, I know I'm about to get sick. Happens every time. Sure enough, by the next afternoon I was feeling pretty crummy. We had friends up for dinner that night, and by the time I went to bed I was really not feeling well.
Then, to top it off, every time I woke up to feed Sydney, I had a crusty left eye. (The one that origionally was blood shot)
By the time I woke up for the day yesterday, I knew I had pink eye. I called the doctor right away, and of course, they didn't have any available appointments, so I had to go into the Urgent Care Center. (Which means it's an ER) Sure enough, it's pink eye, so I got put on eye drops for 7 days. By last night, it was in the other eye. I woke up this morning doing ok.... for about an hour and then it all hit me again and I feel awful still. With two eyes that suck. I am thankful I know what pink eye feels and looks like, because I caught it REALLY early. It's definitely not near as bad as it could be, and has been before. I hope it gets better soon, because my knuckles are red and raw from using so much sanitizer and washing them non-stop. I do NOT want Austin, nor Sydney to end up with pink eye. Austin has had it before, and isn't really cooperative when I had to give him that eye-goop stuff.
And although Austin has yet to get pink eye this time, he did wake up this morning sick. Before bed last night, he complained of how cold he was. We gave him his allergy medicine, and I also decided to give him motrin before bed. What could it hurt right? I'm glad I did though- because when Bryant went in to get him up at his 3:15 pee-pee call, he said he was burning up. He's been super cuddly today, which I in turn don't mind, but it means he feels awful, so I feel awful for making him feel awful. He took a 3 hour nap today, which is UNHEARD of for him. We're usually lucky to get an hour out of him.... let alone THREE! However, it let me get Sydney taken care of, and we layed down for a nap as well.
During all of this, Bryant was gone all day. He was over in Boise doing his Field Day for his Hunters Safety Class. He's home now, thankfully, but left this morning at 6:30am and didn't get home until about 4:00 this evening. Made for a long day of me being sick, Austin being sick, and a newborn depending on me for everything. (Did I sign up for this??) WELCOME TO MOMMY-HOOD!!!

Which brings me to Sydney. Who just filled her diaper.... any takers? No? Okay, I'll enlist Bryant..... :)

She's doing great. She sleeps. All. The. Time. We've learned to wake her around 9pm, and keep her awake for an hour to hour and a half (sometimes she decides to stay awake a little longer on her own accord, which is just fine) and by the time we lay down for bed, she goes to sleep as well. She sleeps anywhere from 2 1/2 hours to 4 hours at a time at night. The 4 hours doesn't happen often, at all, but when it does, it's heaven.
She is DEFINITELY out of preemie clothes. She's wearing newborn right now, which most are still too big for her, but they fit her way better than the preemie size.

But I know, in the back of my mind, I'm going to blink one time just a little too long, and she's going to be as big as Austin. Where does the time go? I, for one, would love to find it tucked away somewhere and dig in and re-live everything that I cherish so much about Austin. I'll want to do it with Sydney in a few years as well, and it breaks my heart that I'll never get these years or this moment back. It's bitter-sweet really. I love to see them thriving, and growing, but it really just goes too quickly. But in knowing this, it makes me strive to be a better mom. It makes me want to love them stronger, laugh harder, smile longer, and hug them just a little tighter every day. I want to worry less, raise my voice less, be angry less. I know there's no such thing as a perfect mom, but it's always good to strive for something, right?