Before I Was a Mom

Mothers Day 2010

Before I was a Mom,

I never tripped over toys

or forgot words to a lullaby.

I didn't worry whether or not

my plants were poisonous,

I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a Mom

I had never been puked on,

Pooped on,

Chewed on,

Peed on.

I had complete control of my mind

and my thoughts,

I slept all night.

Before I was a Mom

I'd never held down a screaming child

So doctors could do tests,

or give shots.

I never looked into teary eyes and cried.

I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.

I never sat up late hours into the night watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a Mom,

I never held a sleeping baby just because

I didn't want to put her down.

I never felt my heart break into a million pieces

When I couldn't stop the hurt.

I never knew that something so small

Could affect my life so much.

I never knew I could love someone so much.

Before I was a Mom

I never knew the feeling of

having my heart outside my body.

I didn't know how special it could feel

to feed a hungry baby.

I didn't know that bond

between a Mother and her child.

I didn't know that something so small

Could make me feel so important and happy.

Before I was a Mom

I had never gotten up in the middle of the night

Every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay.

I had never known the warmth,

the joy,

the love,

the heartache,

the wonderment

of the satisfaction of being a Mom.

I didn't know I was capable

of feeling so much,

Before I was a Mom.